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Jan. 16th, 2005 @ 09:18 pm
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i have this friend i've known for so long and he moved away but we still talk a lot and he wants me to visit him sometimes and stuff, but i don't really want to be involved with his lifestyle and stuff any more. he seems out of place in my life. i don't really want to know him any more. what should i do?Current Mood:  guilty Current Music: Aphex Twin - 4 |
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Jan. 16th, 2005 @ 08:15 pm
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today, i am a silly little boy. i want to do cartwheels and ride loop-de-loops and jump backflips. of course, doing all three of those simultaneously would be the absolute best, but then i would be quite dizzy. let's see. perhaps i can do them seperately. well, i don't think i could land a backflip without hurting myself, so that's off the list. no theme parks are accessible to me right now, so the loop-de-loop's also off the list. i just plain suck at cartwheels, plus i'm too tired. that's off the list. damn. there goes everything.
anyway, madeleine was talking to me and confessed something and i got jealous but i am now okay and i think of her all the time. so much, you know? have you ever felt like you've found something and if you lose them, you're never going to find that same sort of thing again? madeleine's someone who doesn't try to act out of character just to be cool. she knows who she is and she sticks with it all the time. that's what allows me to talk to her about things so easily. i've only ever met two people like that: my brother and madeleine.
tonya's good in a totally different way. i mean, she's like astounding all the time. it's insane, and makes me shy in a good way. super-witty, she's.
i'm as thirsty as a glass. pour water into me.Current Mood: thirsty Current Music: Aphex Twin - 54 Cymru Beats |
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Jan. 13th, 2005 @ 11:25 am
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madeleine visited me yesterday. it was fucking awesome in every way i imagined it to potentially be.
this song is so insanely good.Current Mood:  WEEEEEEEE! Current Music: Metric - I.O.U. |
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Jan. 6th, 2005 @ 01:45 pm
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i've taken to feeling supreme. it's very good. i am awesome.
the things i do and say have no meaning whatsoever, so don't attempt to interpret.
drink up, you stealthy pig. you have art in your veins and blood in your eyes. thou art undetectable.
tricky, né? you're my favourite, madeleine.
too many paragraphs and incomplete sentences, there are.
worms sucks. i hate playing it. convince me otherwise, please.
dude. check it. see? i *am* awesome (this being in addition to lyriquid/mikey). let's dance. i want to hold hands with someone and dance around sillily like tonya and i used to. i miss her.
i am okay. i hope you are okay. "we hope you choke" -thom.Current Mood: supreme Current Music: In Flames - The Quiet Place |
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Nov. 10th, 2004 @ 05:13 pm
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i have decided that capitals have no use whatsoever and i should not use them.
holy crap. i feel so good because of the painkillers i am on. this is a better feeling than even being stoned. this is way better than i have ever felt on marijuana. i will try to find the bottle of pills to see what they are. not that i'd go seeking them out without a prescription or anything. wow. i feel godlike. this is wonderful. i have found the bottle and will type its text.
zehrs drugstore pharmacy wadland pharmacy ltd. 315 lincoln rd. waterloo on n2j4h7 [phone number that i will not include for privacy issues]
rx: zgw905097 wed 10-nov-04 refills: 0
folland, alex
ratio-oxycocet 5mg/325mg
oxycodone hcl/acetaminophen 5mg/325mg
20 TAB RPH dr. prudencio, josé
take 1/2 (half) tablet to 1 tablet by mouth every 6 hours as required
may cause drowsiness.
alcohol may intensify this effect.
use care when operating a car
or dangerous machinery
ok. it has caused enough drowsiness to make me want to go to bed. bye.Current Music: Taproot - Now |
Every day, I wake up to a dream I had that involves a certain person. In every dream, this fantastic girl had acted exactly like she would in real life; completely adorable. She's always putting on a show; being a performer; without trying at all. And I must applaud her script writer, because she emits the most wonderful lines one could imagine. I would enjoy being with her at all times, to experience her constantly-winding, -intriguing performance.
The way this girl talks may not be entirely credible. She has an voluptuous accent of her own, which I've not heard anywhere else. Its magnitude of sensuality is big; big time sensuality.
The fact that she lives far away also adds to her cuteness. She often tells me that she plans to do something quite delightful at great cost to herself, such as attempt some inter-city hitchhiking. If I had the courage to do things like that, I would be a much better boy.
The lack of morality she has is perfect, as it is nearly the same as mine. She would be my perfect partner in crime, had we a plan or two to execute.
Her body is one not to be missed. The way she walks, her bum shifting with every step, her hair caressing her body as it should, is most beautiful. The slight bit of outness below her belly button has me on a leash, as I am drawn to it. Apparently, kissing that spot is quite pleasurable, too, so it completely works out.
There is much to be told about, and I simply can't get enough of my entrancing, artistic, silly kitten, Madeleine Theodore. |
MMORPG = Mass Multiplayer Online Role-Playing Game (eg. EverQuest, Dransik, Ragnarok)
MMORPGs completely eliminate the entire point of playing RPGs, which, to me, is being alone to figure out the story and get past all the challenges on your own. To me, the way an RPG affects your emotions should be intensely personal, like a book. |
I don't know how I am typing such miscellaneous things. Oozing out of my fingers are these things that have no apparent origin. Such things deserve no more than fifteen seconds of reading.
Madeleine is the one on my mind all the time. Her habitat is too far away and inconvenient. I'm not worried though, because I'm getting a new job. I'll have money to do crazy things such as going to Toronto overnight a lot more. This will sure piss off all those people who don't want me to suck-seed in life! I'm amazed.
So, earlier today, I was sleeping and the sun was coming through my window, trying to boil and blister my skin until it was black and crispy. I wish my room was on the other side of the house. But then again, the rooms on the other side of the house suck arse, and sucking arse is a really horrible thing, in the matter of rooms.
Madeleine moves like I want to, and I want to see like her eyes do. She makes the water warm. She tastes foreign, and I feel like more. |
I went to Toronto and visited Madeleine for three days. I can't get enough of her. Like, holy crappage. She has awesomely organized thoughts, supreme personality, and an identity all to herself. Not to mention her most excellent and intriguing body.
I'm not really in the mood for writing, so I'll just blah blah some junk.
éch tee tee pee colon slash slash double-you double-you double-you dot el eye vee ee jay oh you are en éh el dot see oh em slash tilde éh double-you eye eye underscore see éch éh en |
Some of my favourite self-quotes of today:
"I like to lick people, but I'm not sure if they like being licked, so I refrain."
"You are hot. *caresses you* Teehee."
"Shagging is always good."
"Gummi worms are yummi worms."
"As much as I respect your opinion, I respect mine more."
"I'll do that later, when I reget the computer."
"Hugwonderful."
"Hug Deluxe."
"Is it as bracketlicious as I imagine?"
"I beat him up goodly-like."
"I know. Know."
"And it will be wicked pie."
And here is my favourite (not-so) recent conversation. It happened with Tonya.
Ch-ch-check it out:
Alex: are your pigtails huge and awesome like last time I visited your house?
Tonya: nope. I don't have pigtails at the moment.
Tonya: same size, different animal.
Tonya: pony!
Alex: haha
Tonya: ha.
Alex: that made me laugh, completely out-loud!
Tonya: yeah. it's like.. a pony the size of two pigs, you see.
Alex: well, that makes perfect sense
Tonya: mm-hmm.
Alex: that's Some Pony!
Tonya: it's not of a different colour though.
Tonya: which is too bad, really.
Alex: It's pink, then?
Tonya: nope.
Tonya: brown. it's a very ordinary pony.
Alex: Ah! So, from a double-pig, it IS of a different colour.
Alex: >=)
Tonya: not "of a different colour". but, of a different colour than two ordinary pigs. except with me, pigs are never ordinary.
Alex: Hmm. If two pigs were mashed together, would they become a singular horse? Wow! I must try it some time.
Alex: With you, pigs can talk and do backflips with half-twists.
Alex: Extraordinary, indeed.
Tonya: haha. I didn't realize where you must have gotten "Some Pony" from.
Alex: =D
Alex: I'm surprised you caught that!
Alex: But not too.
Alex: Because you catch everything, eventually.
One must admit that Tonya is lovely. If one does not, one wonders why one did not and one's head splits in half. Not that that is within any sort of attempt to make any sort or genre of sense. |
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Aug. 10th, 2004 @ 04:22 pm
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*pulls out a sword for no reason*
I don't even know how to write a capital K in cursive.
I worked from 9:00AM to 2:00PM today. It was easy and I got to know pee oh pull.
"Rita looked offended, but she got out of the way as he came charging down the stairs saying, 'What's that I heard you say!?'" |
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I'm chewing on little black elasticky thingies and listening to "Corn Mouth" by Aphex Twin. |
Ok!!! I, of all people, got a JOB. That's CRAZA to an extreme which is more difficult to measure than it is to say the word, sgfdil. I just hope they don't make me work 26 hours per day, nine days a week. That would just suck. I would owe them many many hours, after a while.
Read that.
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I was watching my brother play the Sims and he was using his (male) character to talk to this guy and then the guys were talking a lot and then he tickled the other guy and then they did the "flirt" thing and then they kissed and I got a boner. |
I'm all thoughtful and stuff. Let's celebrate with a glass of wine.
Speaking of wine, I went camping last weekend at the most beautiful place in the world. I should post the best photo I've ever taken, which was taken there, right after it rained. It was beautiful. I'm glad I got a picture of it. I'm still trying to get my dad to send it. |
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Jul. 20th, 2004 @ 07:18 pm
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I just reread my latest journal entry and laughed my head off!
I'm my favourite comedian. |
Well, I was trying to get Tonya to come home with me, so I could enjoy her presence. I waited outside her class and walked her to her friend, then her friend said, "I have so much to tell you, IN PRIVATE." The "IN PRIVATE" was emphasized to make me go away. So, they went into the girls' washroom. Later in the period, I saw them sitting on the school porch thingy, and I was walking with my friend, Sonia. So, I sat down beside Tonya and tried to talk to her. Sonia walked away, and Kat (Tonya's friend) said, "I think your friend wants you to follow her." I said, "I think you want me to go away, so just to respect your wishes, I'll do so." and left. Kat doesn't like me at all, and I don't know why. It's rejection, and it makes me feel awful.
Err.
I'm feeling really romantic today. I've been feeling this way all day. That's why I went to school to get Tonya to come home with me. I was going to surprise her with fun romantics. |
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Jun. 3rd, 2004 @ 05:22 pm
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You MUST try these cookies. They will make you feel all cozy and unrigid. |
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Jun. 3rd, 2004 @ 01:30 pm
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If there was a Tonya 2, she would be named Kat and she would be British. She would talk about herself in the 3rd person and have perfect spelling. She would talk to me on the internet and have very low self esteem.
She would be thoroughly beautiful. |
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I was sitting in my green-ass chair one day, which is today, thinking. It was fucking awesome. |
No. I don't.
I'm not going to complain simply because there's nothing to complain about, so I'll just stop writing right now. |
I ought to write something. There’s definitely a lot to write about. I mean, just think about the world. People have been writing and talking about things for thousands of years, and will continue to do so for many years to come, most likely. Of course, the master plan is backfiring, and if it truly existed in the first place, the apocalypse will come soon, but considering that the master plan doesn’t exist, no.
Unplanned sequels are crappy. That’s how I feel about Tonya leaving. It would be much better if she just stayed here as herself and not leave me to find Tonya 2. Even if there is a Tonya 2, she just won’t be the same. She won’t be written by the same author. |
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May. 14th, 2004 @ 11:31 am
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So, the thing is, you're reading this because you want to.
Just look at my lack of spelling mistakes.
I've decided that this will become the place to read my latest literature and you will enjoy it whther you like it or not. That unmakes sense, but care, I don't.
Once upon a time, there was a silly little school called Bluevale Collegiate Institute. The long name sucked, so people just called it "Bluevale". There were a bunch of people who went to that school every day from 8:10 to 2:50. They thought their school was great. Unfortunately, they were wrong. They hadn't considered the other possibilities. In actual opinion, there were two schools which had more money, cuter people, more [locker] space, etc. Kitchener Collegiate Institute (shortened to "KCI") in Kitchener and Centennial Colligiate Vocational Institute (shortened to "Centennial") in Guelph were much better schools for these reasons. The Bluevale students continued to go to Bluevale and the people at KCI and Centennial lived happily ever after.
The End |
I don't have the internet at home, so this can only be updated at school, and suchlike. No matter. The world will continue to rotate and revolve.
On another note or three, I'm on prozac now because of my mad depression which makes me stay inert for days at a time. I'm on drugs, and they're prescribed. Whoopee.
Gah. I'm still so depressed. I feel dead. A romantic like me needs to be romantic at all times or his control disapperates to some sort of unavoidable oblivion.
I wish I could write a lot more. I think I might have writers' block. The most I've written recently is located at http://www25.brinkster.com/lexmaps/pure.html
And to top it off, "eeaaaarrrrr." |
I'm exulting because life is awesome today! No day last month was as good as today! I woke up on time from my alarm, I had my medicine, I had a bath, I got to school on time and did much work, reading a book by Jessica's favorite author at lunch. I went home with two girls who, at first, thought I was stalking them because I just happen to live in an apartment building close to one of their houses, but I quickly reassured them that I'm not a stalker. We quickly became aquainted and friendly, so there! Wewt! They told me that I look like a guy from Greenday, but with different-colored hair! That's ironic because Greenday is one of my favorite bands. I went home, then went online, where I played a lot of Worms with my friends and then Jessica came onto MSN! She's had a lot of initiative lately, so she was telling me to do my homework, and to everyone's astonishment (including my own), I actually did it! I made pizza for supper and my good friend, Ashley, was asking me for opinions on how she should remake her site, yet again. I was eating pizza, doing homework, talking to Jessica, and could only type with one finger, so I had to tell her I was too busy and like yeah and stuff. Next thing I knew, I was on the phone with Jessica and we were talking about everything and I'm so happy and yeah.Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: Hoku - Perfect Day |
I just finished the dishes I had been putting off for four days! There sure were a lot of them, expecially since my mom bought a new set of glasses which needed to be washed. I feel great that I'm getting back on track, which means that I'll probably be allowed to see Jessica this Saturday! She's such a great influence on me, and I'm so grateful that she's in my life.
My friends are great also. I wish I could help my best friend, Joe, get a girlfriend, as he seems to really want someone he can share everything with. My good friend, Ashley, who recommended this journal has a LiveJournal here: http://www.livejournal.com/~darkpapillon and she just broke up with her boyfriend.
Like I said yesterday, things can only get better, and they have been! I'm doing great.Current Mood: happy Current Music: The Offspring - Come Out Swinging |
I just found out that it was a short day at school, so there were all 5 periods, all shortened. . . My brother came home and said, "Hi, Alex!" I missed all my classes today. I'm such a bad truant that my brother wasn't even surprized that I missed school today!
I'm listening to a new song by System of a Down called "Boom!" It's such an inspirational song! Go download the music video, if you haven't seen it on MTV or MuchMusic already! The video shows millions of people in the biggest cities of the world uniting against the war in Iraq.Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: System of a Down - Boom! |
I woke up this morning, not to the sound of my alarm, but to my mom's voice. I don't know how my alarm doesn't wake me up, and I know it goes off. It confuses me that such an annoying sound wouldn't affect me in any way during my sleep. I must have gotten up, pressed the button, and gone back to bed without remembering a thing. I sleep too well. Anyways, I had to take my relaxing bath which took way too long, so I missed my first and second periods of school. . . This is getting really bad. . . I should be trying my hardest to get to school on time. I'd say that I am trying my hardest, but that would just be a lie to myself and others. I know I can do better.
I want to see Jessica this weekend, but I haven't been behaving well, so my mom might not let me. I'll do the dishes that I haven't done for two days as soon as possible, to show that I can help at least a bit. I'll go to bed at 7:30 tonight to get more sleep, and tomorrow, I'll be good as new. Weeeee! This will work, as long my my good will doesn't fade throughout the day. It's a struggle to keep myself together with ADD. I'll take some medicine and it'll help a lot. I keep yawning! This early bedtime stuff will help a lot!Current Mood:  lazy Current Music: computer - hum (yet again) |
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Apr. 1st, 2003 @ 10:32 pm
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I have no patience right now. . . My body is feeling like crap. I'm sweating. I have a headache. This is what happens when I look at a bright screen in low light too long. Of course, I don't often tell anyone online when I'm pissed off, as I know that it's not their fault. I'm just pissed off because my headache won't go away and I'm trying to play Worms with a new friend, and I made a really bad first impression.
I find that this journal's greatest purpose is to complain. So far, I think that complaints are the only things I've written in here. This is extremely helpful, though, as it gives my friends a more inside perspective of me, as I try to hide it when I'm talking to them live. I wonder if anyone thinks I'm too nice. . . Nah. I bet they all just think I'm too lazy to analyze my situations. As my girlfriend's lighter says, "I smile because I don't know what's going on." Does this properly portray my feelings? No. I know what's going on. Does it portray Jessica's? No, she smiles because she cares.
I made up a method of subconsciously learning a person's personality. It's a series of questions I like to call "or" questions. For example, I would ask, "Speed or accuracy?" and my friend would respond, "Accuracy." Subconsciously, there would be a connection to everything in my life that might require accuracy over speed, and I would get a feeling of how much alike they are to me.
I'm suddenly feeling great, as my headache magically disappeared a few minutes before Jessica came onto MSN Messenger. I still have one thing I need to worry about, though: the amount of sleep I'm getting. I think I'm sweating and I had that headache because of the little amount of sleep I've been getting. It's just not enough. I'm going to go to bed early tomorrow. I'm making it a plan to get to sleep by 7:30 PM, and I'll do whatever it takes to force myself.Current Mood: horny Current Music: computer - loud humming sound (lol) |
My room's a mess. I have tons of incomplete projects I'm working on. I have too many friends who I haven't even met in person. I feel so disorganized. I am left with a glimmer of hope. I'll strive to reach it. Bam. I have it. Life will only improve from now on. Look! I've already cleaned up my room!
My girlfriend, Jessica, has a lot on her mind. . . I wish I could help her. . . She's helped me see life from a whole new perspective, and for the past few months, almost everything has been going my way. But, it seems that following every good phase is a stressful one. Of course, a phase can't last forever, but I was kind of hoping for the good one to last a really long time.
Romantics with Jessica have been great, but I don't want to control everything she does. I don't want her as stressed as I am. Perhaps it's a good thing that we don't go to the same school, let alone the same city. As my mom has told me all my life, keep a balance of work and play, both in moderation; you'll feel good. I'm currently striving for that, but I can't seem to fit a lot of learning in there, too. School, right now, is one big hassle. I wish it would just complete itself, but that won't happen until the invention of the ability to edit the knowledge in a human brain, which probably won't be in my lifetime, but I can be optimistic; I'll hope for it, and maybe even invent it myself. Who knows?Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: A Fire Inside - The Boy Who Destroyed the World |
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